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Friday, May 25, 2007

I M FEELING DAMN DEPRESSED right now!!!!!!!!!!!

first day of work was TOTALLY CRAP today.. nth went smoothly right frm the start..

feeling damn USELESS and HOPELESS now..

"JOBLESS & SCHLESS"

these 2 words kept ringing in my head constantly reminding me of the mess i m in..

i m lyk a deflated balloon now.. fully DEMORALIZED..

i haf work so hard for the past 3 yrs while i was in TP..

attended lessons regularly.. studied wholeheartedly for all tests and exams and put in alot of time and effort to complete all my projs..

managed to get on the director honours list in yr 1.. got on the temasek honours list for being in the top 10% of the graduating cohort by the end of yr 3..

proud to say tt i graduated with a dip in business WITH MERIT..

i did all these with one aim in mind - GET INTO NTU BUS SCH at the end of it

HOWEVER all the above prove to be REDUNDANT..

nt all hard work pays off.. its nt so true when ppl say u reap wat u sow..

tts wat happens to me.. rejected by ntu biz sch and i feel so unjust..

i guess theres one thing tt my bro has say is very right though i hate to agree..

he said: no point saying how smart or wat honours list or dip with merit i haf got.. bcos at the end of the day i was still rejected by ntu.. it just goes to show "how smart" i m

or was it nt enuff? haf i nt done enuff to achieve my dream?

who will truly understand how i feel now.. haizzzzzzzz


nowadays i m so afraid tt ppl will ask wat i m currently doing..

i cant say i m still schooling cos the fact is i had just OFFICIALLY GRADUATED frm TP 3 days ago..

i cant say i m working either bcos i haf nt started finding a perm job yet..

its lyk i m NEITHER HERE NOR THERE..

this thought is realli driving me CRAZY..

i m SUPER SUPER STRESSED UP lately over the uncertainty of my future..

i realli duno how.. CLUELESS & HELPLESS..

dunno who can help mi gt out of this fix..

seems lyk theres no1 who can advise mi on this IMPT decision tt i haf to make..

to continue to STUDY and pursue a degree or just go n WORK?

tried asking my bro for advise..

BUT AS EXPECTED all i gt was his sarcasm saying tt no sch wans me bla bla..

as if i m nt feeling any worse alr..

awwww LIFE totally SUCKS for me at the moment..

mayb its also the time of the month which makes mi even more vulnerable to tears.. sobz


simply HATE to b at the crossrds of life where i haf to make critical decision tt is likely to affect me for life..


how i wish my guardian angel will appear and SAVE ME..


breaking now any moment.. mani things tt ppl ard me do and say can TRIGGER me negatively tt is..


no idea how long i can still lllaaassssssssssssttttttttt........




Let love be the one to knock at ur door ♥♥♥
♥♥♥ True love is worth waiting for


5/25/2007 11:29:00 PM